#3

Maybe love made me become childish ,or maybe the pain i had changed me that i became like this .i thought that if i go 'mia' you would contact me more but i was wrong .i realise we actually talked more back then compare to now ,or maybe its just because it was the 'start' 

Maybe between us there will never be another chance for us to be back together like how we were months back ,or maybe not even close to each other .sometimes i really yearn for your attention so much ,sometimes i wish we never had what we had before so at least now we can still be close .seeing your friends having the attention from you really saddens me .they dont have to yearn for your attention and the can have it ,but here i am yearning for your attention ; even just a lil i still dont get it 

I always think that our end ,your decision ,is caused by me .i always thought that giving you my care and concern ,my time ,my love ; sacrificing my rest my work for you etc can keep you by my side and never lose you .sometimes i even 'push away' my plans just for a meet up with you .thinking doing all this you'll love me more and never leave me .maybe i was too naive thinking this way - you left me anyway