#4

Sometimes idk isit my fault that we've became like this. I hate how I see things that shouldn't be seen by me. What do you mean "I hope we last " ?I know you're not referring to me because we haven't been talking lately.

It really hurts to see things like this or photos of you with other girls. I thought escaping, I would feel better but no I was wrong. I'm feeling terrible everyday without fail. 

People don't understand what I've Been through and they judge me for who I am now. I've really Been through a lot, but I'm still stuck here with all the past memories, past love, past you.. 

Idk should I ask, I'm dying to find out but I'm really afraid to face the truth. Maybe you've really moved on to your next chapter of life while I'm still here living in  the past. I can't move on ,I can't forget any lil bit of you and us. I always put on a mask whenever I'm with someone, even my own family member. 

I can't face the world, I can't face the reality. Im no longer the one I am previously. I'm so hurt that I've changed to someone I myself don't even know. 

I really hope you're not having someone else out there because I'm still here waiting for you. 

I really miss you, so so much, B.koy